It's not always about me... and a little about change...

I'm not sure who actually reads my blog but I wanted to write a little bit about other things happening around me that are greatly impacting my life.

As some may know, my step mom June was recently diagnosed with cancer yet again. I don't know if this is her 4th or 5th battle but she is a veteran at fighting this very unpredictable monster.

Naturally I am worried. I love my step mom a lot. She has been very supportive to me, very caring and she has made my father a better man and a better dad. Quite frankly I wouldn't wish cancer on my worst enemy but it tears me up inside that it can happen to such a wonderful woman.

I like to boast in life that I have no fear but that would be a lie. I do fear cancer. It is so unpredictable and there are so many varieties... Aside from the head to toe locations that you can get it, there are the varying degrees of how rapidly it progresses. And then if you're lucky to be told that it can be treated, there is the treatment itself which can be just as bad as the disease.

I have high hopes and lots of positive thoughts for June though. She has beat this before and will again. She has the support of all of her family and friends, and I can say for sure that I am doing anything I can think of to help out. I am holding a wine and cheese fundraiser to help them with the expense of travelling to Calgary every 3 weeks for chemotherapy. Lauren and I are picking her daughter (my stepsister) up from the airport to bring her to Lethbridge tonight so they can spend the week together. I don't care if I am not home until 2am by the time we get back to Calgary. This is what people do for the ones they love and she should only have to worry about getting healthy again.

Anyway. If anyone reading this is interested in making a donation to the cause, let me know ok?

Aside from all of that, I am just working on figuring out what I am going to do when I grow up now that my life has been changed to an almost unrecognizable state. My step mom's cancer battle is just one of the things that is happening while life is still being lived. I have 2 jobs, I have family and friends that I am trying my best not to alienate. I have hopes and dreams for the future which I am hoping will eventually feed in to what is happening in my life.

It is like my life is a dart board, my future goals are in the bulls eye and the darts are all of these things happening in parallel. They all add up to the eventual goal and occasionally I may have something happen that hits the bulls eye and feeds directly into my goals, but all in all, I have to just work towards something hoping that eventually it will all make sense and meet my expectations.

I know that my fairly insignificant soul has a minor impact on the world. My carbon footprint alone is impacting the world, but I want more than that. When I eventually leave this world and move on to bigger and better things, I want to know that I made a difference.

I know what I want to do. I want to be an advocate for change. I want to help people understand, embrace and welcome change. Change is inevitable and will happen with or without our help... so why not learn to accept it? Also we need to understand how to make sure that the changes that happen are guided into the right direction.. positive direction.

Anyway I am rambling again...

Just wanted to share a little bit more about what is going on with my life..

Thanks for reading!