Extremes and the bridge between Venus and Mars - Plateaued at -142...

I've been driving myself crazy... partially delusional thoughts that it really doesn't bother me that I still haven't met that Lavalife guy who seems like a fantastic person but everything has come in the way of us meeting... interestingly enough, the intent is there, the mutual interest is there... but then again I am not completely dumb, I know that actions speak far louder than words and you'd think nothing would stop two people from coming together if its meant to be...

So that is one extreme... theoretically a great possibility but no intent or urgency to bring it to life..

And here is the other extreme... virtually no mutual knowledge or understanding, yet the urgency to bring it to life seems almost frantic... Here's the story..

I went back onto Lavalife to finally update my profile as I've begun to realize that I need to find someone who wants to go out of his way to meet me.. someone who. even if he CAN'T meet me, communicates with me and shows his interest in other ways..

So not even on there for 5 mins, I get an Instant Message... A 28 yr old guy who lives in New Brunswick but is planning on moving to Calgary within the next 3-4 months... for the record.. sounds like a great guy.. a little too good to be true....

Here's roughly how the conversation went:
(* Names have been changed to protect the innocent ;P)

Him: Hi
Me: Hi
Him: I'm Steve*, you?
Me: Sally*
Him: Nice to meet you
Me: U too
Him: You are very pretty
Me: Thanks :)
Me: You live in NB??
Him: Yes but I am moving to Alberta
Me: ahh...

...and so forth...

So the conversation went on for several minutes... we both admitted to being very bold and assertive.. we both claim to know what we want and do whatever it takes to get it..

He promptly asks what it would take to get me... I promptly respond with an astounded "You don't know me!!" He claims he is interested anyway based on my profile and attraction etc..

So we move the conversation to MSN and by this time I am already exhausted (it's after 1am MST)... He tells me his profession which is respectable.. he's a musician too which is a bonus.. but he's freakin on the other side of the country!!!

So I tell him flat out... that I cannot do a long distance relationship.. I can't allow myself to "fall" for someone that I can't touch on a daily basis if I wanted to.. He agrees but wants to continue with something... so I recommend friendship... He tells me he is extremely impatient and wouldn't want things to develop too slowly.. Seriously, if this guy was in Calgary right now, I would not hesitate meeting him to see where it could go.. he's direct and assertive enough for me, that is for sure..

I begin to think... is this karma's way of kicking me in the ass for my impatience with the other Lavalife guy??

So here I have one guy that is local and no matter how many times we discuss meeting and mutual interest, nothing comes of it... and there is this other guy who barely knows me yet so urgently wants to get to know me and see it develop.. but I would have to wait up to 4 months to be with him..

What the heck is going on with the universe??

I have begun to learn something about myself which is always a positive.. Here are a few highlights...

1) I like attention. Its a curse but I admit it...
2) I like assertive (not aggressive) men
3) I don't have a perfect age requirement but seem to find 6 yrs either way is a healthy number
4) I need physical contact.. flesh.. face to face.. it's human
5) My heart and my mind are way too open so I've begun to realize that I am going to have to deal with getting hurt if I want to find the right guy because I don't want my mind or heart to be closed..

And so it begins.. I need to hire a contractor to build me a bridge between Venus and Mars.. Even though I know my "karma" bank is loaded, I don't know if the universe accepts that kind of currency..

So there are my two extremes... local but inattentive... or attentive and distant...

Welcome to my life :P