Death, dreaming, dating and a new tattoo!

I am in a funk today. A cloudy head, distracted, disoriented funk.

I had an experience yesterday that scared me to death...

I was driving to work. My usual route. 52nd street to 72nd Ave to Barlow Trail to Deerfoot to Memorial..

I was at the light at 52nd and 72nd and the guy in front of me turned left and I thought .. "I have enough time" so I stepped on the gas pedal and at that second, my gut got tense and I thought..

Oh Shit... I am not going to make it.

A big truck was just flying towards me and doing far faster than I had anticipated.. and I did make it.. obviously.. but it rattled my back end and immediately afterward, I thought to myself..

What if I am dead??

Ok so I know it was only a movie but we all saw in Sixth Sense how he had no idea he was dead for quite a while after.. just going through his day... oblivious. All movies stem from ideas which could stem from real experiences.. but thats another blog.

So the whole trip to work I was in this daze.. what if.. what if I was dead and just going through the motions.. and then I felt it.. a twinge of pain from my wrist.. my tattoo was hurting.. and at that moment I had the clarification that I wasn't dead. I figure you don't feel pain after you're dead. Even still, my day was cloudy and just generally hazy.

Today I definitely feel hazy too. I am going to take the afternoon off. I will go and get my car washed, do-it-myself. It gives me a sense of accomplishment :) I am listening to my mp3 player on random. I let the universe choose what I need to hear.. so far I have listened to a NIN song, Nsync and 2 Whitney Houston songs about love... oi.

So let me recap this week.. Tuesday I went Speed Dating. 25dates.com. I had fun. The food was good. The guys were much older than I was hoping...but it was a good time..

I got the email yesterday.. no matches.

So I get to go to another event for free. They offered me the same age group in April but I asked if I could go to the event March 11th. The age range of the original one was women 30-40 and men 35-45. The March 11th event is women and men 25-35. Never anything middle ground for us 30 somethings...

Wednesday, I got my tattoo. As planned, two wavy lines on my inner left wrist. I love it. It is outlined in black and then shaded in purple with a white line in the middle. Right now it looks fake. It is scabbing over so it looks like a fabric sticker I put on my wrist. Adam did a great job though. I love it. I will likely have to get the color touched up in 6 weeks just to make sure it is perfect.

Thursday was dinner with Alice and Choir. I have decided to stick with 1st Soprano. I was having second thoughts because I haven't been able to hit all the notes but I figure I have been sick so I may as well give myself a real chance.. besides, I can fake it if necessary ;P Dinner with Alice was good. I enjoyed my bunless hamburger and calamari.. My virgin caesar was too spicy though.

Oh! I booked an appointment with Goodlife Fitness in McKenzie Towne about a membership! I am excited about that!

I had a really creepy dream last night. I dreamed that Lauren and I were at home, sitting there doing whatever.. and two older men somehow managed to open our living room winddow.

Naturally Lauren got up and closed/locked the window but they then went to the back door which was of course unlocked. Before we could lock the door, these two very large men come into the kitchen. One of them has a ladle!!! So I grab the ladle and start hitting him over the head with it but of course it doesn't even phase him and he takes the abuse. Then his friend pulls out a pencil.. you know one of those gag pencils that is like a wooden stake? like 1/2 an inch in diameter...

Anyway.. these guys didn't seem to want anything, they just kept trying to provoke me.. They let me get the pencil away and then barely fought when I tried to stab one of them with it.. Well, one starts bleeding a bit and the other grabs the pencil and stabs himself in the stomach. He starts to bleed everywhere.. could only think to say "Well I guess we are getting a new couch!

Turns out, the men were dying so they wanted someone to kill them in self defence I told Lauren to call 911 but next thing I know, she is on the phone with 911's HR dept. So weird.