Feb 4th Blog - better late than never!

I had a dream last night.

Everyone thought I had died in some tragic accident and rather than let everyone know I was ok, I went into hiding. I think I was hiding in an attic crawl space with a faux panel which I entered/exited from. It was strange because it was in a house that belonged to my family and many people who knew me and thought I was dead would come to visit periodically throughout the day but in general, I was able to roam the house freely. When a visitor came, I would hoist myself up into the crawl space in the attic and lay still. The two people (maybe family?) who were helping me hide would put the faux panel back in place and accept the visitor as if nothing was out of the ordinary.

So weird!

In part of the dream, I was looking through my wig collection to see how I could alter my appearance so that I could go out in public.

Now that I have dreamed about something like this, I question how anyone could live their life in hiding. That is no life at all! The thrill of the deception fades so quickly and suddenly you feel like a prisoner, except that you have placed yourself in the prison!

On to more normal things...

I had lost another 2 lbs up to the 25th of January. My total loss became 125 BUT.. since then, I regained another 3 lbs so my loss is back to 122. I am going to assume being sick was responsible for the big drop and perhaps the 3 lbs was a normal bounce back.

I went speed dating on the 26th. I had fun meeting new people and it was definitely an experience I won't regret.. but I was extremely disappointed. Most of the guys were shorter than me.. I am 5'83/4" and I know that odds are some of them would be shorter but it was really off balance. I GENEROUSLY said yes to 7 guys. I just thought being my first time that I would be open to whatever and let the chips fall as they may.. and I have to tell you I was SO RELIEVED when I got the email telling me there were NO matches! I had regrets when I went home that night.. Of the 7, I was hoping at least 5 or 6 didn't get my number!

I'd try speed dating again but not through calgaryspeeddating.com. I felt ripped off.. I paid $45 and drinks were NOT included, I met 10 guys and the hors d'ouvres were cheap. I'd rather pay more with another organization and have some guarantees! 25dates.com says they guarantee that if you don't get a match, the next speed dating session you go on is free. Thats fantastic because it shows they are trying to get you a match..

I am wiped right out! It seems I can't slow down! With my birthday coming up, I won't be able to slow down at all this next week either.

I went back to eating bread and pasta for a week or so and I already feel like complete crap again so I am back off of it.

I need to look into ways to improve my memory. I was hoping that weight loss would have had an immediate impact but I still have issues with memory..

I can memorize my lines for my acting class but I can't remember basic stuff like What channels on cable have which programs or names to faces.

I would love some feedback about memory conditioning if anyone has any suggestions!